A Commitment to Myself
Posted on March 09, 2020
I admitted myself into treatment at The Renfrew Center of Radnor in July, and at the time I am writing this, it is the end of December. I began treatment voluntarily, but ambivalently. I lived more of my life with an eating disorder than without it; the eating disorder had served a purpose at one point, and perhaps even helped me survive.
However, these days it wasn't serving the same purpose and morphed into a destructive, debilitating force. After being in treatment for some time, ambivalence was replaced with a commitment to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Now, being at the end of my treatment at Renfrew, I pursue my recovery with a commitment to myself and a better future. Today and every day, I make the choice to honor myself, my body and my well-being. For the first time in my life, I feel hopeful and in control of my life; I have obtained insight about myself and the function of my eating disorder which enables me to have power over it.
I know recovery doesn't end at Renfrew's steps and I feel more confident in my ability to overcome the obstacles I'll encounter in the future. Thank you to my team and the Renfrew Center for providing me with invaluable tools and insight. Thank you to myself for working hard to get to this point.
I am excited for life post-ED, and I hope whoever is reading this also finds the strength to commit to themselves and their life.