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To Hide the 'Queer'

By: Emma H., Renfrew Alumna

Posted on June 01, 2020


This piece illustrates the internal battle I feel regarding my sexuality. Growing up as an innocent, young lesbian in an openly homophobic and sexist environment, desperately beating down any sign of being gay, was terrifying. I kept that part of me hidden, condemned to a small rainbow circle, so no one else could hurt me.

I created this piece just days before I came out to my family. I wish that I could tell the me I was when I painted those demons how everything turned out, and how much stronger it made me. I hope my artwork can give hope to another young lesbian, scared of her own heart, and spark the courage and strength that she needs to make it through.


Emma's artwork is featured in The Renfrew Center Foundation's 2020 Art Calendar. Each piece of artwork in this calendar was selected because it contains a deep truth that is illuminated in beauty through the visual language. The pieces were chosen from thousands of compelling works of art that have been created in art therapy groups at The Renfrew Center. To order your copy, please click here.
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