Posted on September 10, 2018
The most challenging aspect to my recovery is learning that I am not in control and, in fact, I cannot control everything around me, despite what my eating disorder says. It has been grueling to surrender control of my restrictive, meticulous planning to allow for truth, growth and recovery to truly flourish. That is what I imagine complete vulnerability and a loss of control to feel like - rising bubbles, gentle clouds, swirling orbs of bliss.
